one/ two/ three/ four/ five
Okay, so as I’m sure you’re aware of this is actually more of a things mommy thinks Eisley would love list, since she’s not really old enough to be circling her favorite things in the toy catalog quite yet. I wanted to include some things she can grow with as well as some things that are perfect for her right now while she’s in this see, feel, hear stage. The little piano is actually set to be delivered today! Andrew and I have also decided to go to the store and each pick out something from just us for Eisley so that we’re surprised at what she’s getting as well. I’m so excited for Eisley’s first Christmas! Is it the 25th yet?!
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
It may have started with throwing a blanket over my head and blown up when Andrew decided that fort making is no joke. We may or may not have discussed how large we could potentially make the fort considering our stash of blankets. Maybe next time. Either way, Eisley thought the fort was pretty darn cool so I see many movie nights in living room fortresses in our future.
Sunday, December 1, 2013
There were many things that went into planning for Eisley. We planned for a natural birth, we planned to cloth diaper & I without a doubt planned on breastfeeding. At 30 weeks I was soaking my shirts overnight in colostrum and I was so excited that my body was obviously primed and at the ready to nurse our baby. I had dreams of having a perfect natural delivery, the nurse would set our baby on my chest & she would latch on perfectly and nurse like a champ.
Well, I did get my natural birth. But things didn’t go exactly to plan. And when they set her tiny little vernix coated body on my chest my heart was about burst. I laid her to my breast and… she didn’t latch. I could express colostrum into her mouth and she would guzzle it down but she wouldn’t even try to latch. To anyone who isn’t aware, that’s the blessing of a vac. And by blessing I mean absolute curse.
I have bittersweet feelings about that vac. Without it, our little sunny side up munchkin may not have made it into the world naturally. After four hours of pushing the prospect of a c-section was quickly approaching while Eisley struggled to get past my pelvis in the birth canal due to her position. On the other hand it added to a short list of reasons why nursing was a little difficult for us at the start. In case you were wondering, when a baby is removed by vac they use an object that’s somewhat like a plunger. When I pushed they attached it to her head to allow her to crown and then removed it so I could push her the rest of the way. However it leaves bruising on the scalp which of course affects the jaw muscles and makes baby unwilling to suck.
But it wasn’t that alone. The bruising set us back a day in the sucking/latch department. Determined to not supplement, I spoon-fed Eisley my colostrum. I was actually a colostrum machine. I pumped the colostrum and continued to express with her at my chest so the moment she was ready to latch she could. Except there was another hurdle. My left nipple was flatter and even when the soreness subsided she continued to struggle. The only unkind nurse we had our entire stay came in around 4am the first night and basically threw a shield at me with no explanation and left. I had no idea what to do with it. I understood the concept but couldn’t get it to stay. I struggled with it until I was left in tears that woke up Andrew who came and helped me express milk into her mouth and soothed me and wiped my tears.
What was wrong with me? Why was I struggling so hard to nurse this baby when my body was producing so much? I didn’t want to fail at this. I was terrified of starving my baby.
But then hope.
The next morning the LC came. She discussed Eisley’s issues with latching us and we decided to use the shield. She showed me that my issues with it were completely solved by wetting down the shield before placing it to my chest. We did this and slowly Eisley started getting the hang of it. She was eating & happy! The nurses came in to do her blood sugar test and her numbers were outstanding! Apparently the fact that I had needed to spoon feed at first had not hindered her one bit.
From those weeks on out the struggles continued. Eisley would eat like a champ (a very messy one, though) with the shield on but would refuse me without it for the longest time. I kept setting deadlines. She’ll be weaned by 1 week. Okay, maybe 2. Alright a month. And eventually, after holding the breast for her and teaching her to learn to eat without the shield she started to latch on her own. By a month and a half or so, we no longer had to use the shield and I felt so relieved. Now, I feel like Eisley is a nursing champ! She still tends to favor my right side, but from what I’ve heard breast favoritism isn’t uncommon.
We are blessed. Though we struggled I am very happy to say that I haven’t ever had to supplement. Eisley’s been exclusively fed boob juice since day one. The ease of feedings now may have been proceeded by countless hours on the couch hunched over uncomfortably but they were worth it.
I wanted to post this because I know there are others out there. Moms who didn’t have the fairytale of a rosy newborn who latched with their first breath. Other moms who are struggling and are ready to throw down the towel, turn off the pump & cry. But I want to you to know that you’re not alone. Persistence is the only thing that brought us where we are today. We at first didn’t succeed but we tried and tried again and again and again and again and again. And eventually it wasn’t so hard. Eventually it actually began to be more of a bonding experience rather than a chore. We exchanged smiles instead of tears. Was it worth the initial struggle? ABSOLUTELY. I’d do it a million times over to be able to give her what I’ve given her. What a blessing it is.
Friday, November 29, 2013
I’m thankful for these brown eyes.
I’m thankful for slobbery baby kisses.
I’m thankful for a husband who will check on Eisley when I’m too tired to move.
I’m thankful for a baby who sleeps through the night.
I’m thankful for our dog Chewy, even if he’s crazy.
I’m thankful for family.
I’m thankful for my mommy village.
I’m thankful for the wonderment that is the sun and moon and stars.
I’m thankful for air in my lungs.
I am thankful for life.
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Eisley Mae Harnois
12 lbs 4 oz
24 1/2 inches long
Little miss still prefers to be held standing rather than ‘held like a baby’. This past month she started rolling from back to tummy and ends up flipping on to her tummy in her sleep every night. She wants to crawl so badly! She gets super flustered and only ends up pulling herself up or moving her legs. She can’t seem to move them both at once. It’s actually pretty cute.
She’s working on sitting up on her own. The boppy doesn’t do us much good anymore because she refuses to lay in it. She wants to sit up straight so we mostly only use it for tummy time now. I’ve been loving listening to her precious belly laugh lately. It’s my favorite sound. She also has been really into pulling her binky out of her mouth just so she can put it back in. She pull it out, spin it, put it in, pull it out, put it in, pull it out, switch hands, put it in. It’s so much fun watching her learn. She loves sticking her tongue out and if you do so as well she will copy you. When we were at her four month doctor appointment she mimicked me saying uh oh. I thought that I was imagining things at first until the doctor looked up from his chart and said
”Did she just say uh oh?”
So apparently I’m not crazy. HA.
Also, to anyone interested, I will be posting the gold bow in my shop sometime this holiday weekend!
Friday, November 22, 2013
Richard Scary has nothing on me. Life has been pretty hectic lately, but not in a terrible way. My little girl is growing and growing and growing and I am busy redoing our home, working at the salon, revisiting old and beloved fascinations & opening up my etsy shop as well as creating stock. I miss reading and commenting on blogs like I had been, but I’ve finally started USING the bloglovin’ app so I’m really hoping that changes. I miss keeping up with other mommies and bloggers on here. Soon enough. :)